Where did my Teddy go?

I have been having a lot of really anxiety or panic attacks the past for weeks and I hate it. It's getting so bad that my family fears for me and wants to help in way they can, even if some of them don't know what to do...Hell, I don't even know what to do. All I do know is anything that keeps my from thinking, stressing out or feeling alone helps, and things to Vanoss and Delirious' videos (and other YouTubers it happens to be mostly them) I don't have them as much after watching them. I don't know why but it seems to help.. and I know they say never meet your heros but it would be nice to meet them and thank them in person for just being funny and doing what makes them happy.

Also I know this has nothing to do with drawing I did but I just wanted to say that.